If you don't know it yet, I'm a total character. I'm a million different people at once, but if you don't know me- you'll think I'm shy. The truth is, I'm not. I'm just watching. Trying to figure out who you are and how to interact with you properly. I don't like fighting with people- not that I won't, I just don't like it.
Right now, my life is in total and complete chaos. I don't want to share it all. I mean, some things just don't belong on the internet. But since life has turned upside down and started taking tango lessons from a blind house elf, I decided it might be time to let the people that give a few bits know that I am horribly behind schedule.
I've read every review book I've received but two- they just came in. I haven't had a chance to get the reviews written and posted yet. I'm sorry you guys, I'm trying.
My writing feels like it's on freeze. It isn't because I don't want to write. It's now more of "I don't have enough hours in the damn day to do it." Chapter 12 is started to Bella Tristezza. But when I say started, what I really mean is that there's a piece of paper that says "Chapter 12" on it... and that's it. I feel like I'm letting my readers down. I said I'd get it out early this year and Feb is almost over and I still need to write at least 3 chapters and do edits! Plus formatting! That isn't even thinking about the 4 other projects I have going or how I wanted to do the next write a novel in a month thing that isn't called NaNo! It makes me want to cry! Writing is my passion, it isn't just something I make money on (believe me, if I wanted to make money I don't think writing would be my first choice!).
Since I've launched Skypirate Productions. I have had 2 people look into it. Both agreed, one backed out without saying they were backing out (gee, thanks there!) and the other I released her book (a poetry book) and sales just aren't very good. I know that I took on the hardest freaking thing as the first project for my small press, but damn, I thought I would be at least have good sales for the first day!!! I've let myself down and I'm sure I've let her down! Plus I'm supposed to release two more of her poetry books and I just don't know if I can! I could slap them together and edit, format, and release them. But what's the point if I can't get anyone to read them!? I don't even know what to do! Any suggestions!?
And my dear Wattpad fans... I am not ignoring you! I love that you've fanned, followed, and commented on the stuff I have up over there. It's just that I don't have a lot of time to get back to the site to thank each of you, and once they start piling up- I get buried. After I finish this post I'm planning on trying to get through the latest, but I think there's something like 100+ there. O.o So much love, so little time. I'm sorry if you guys feel like I've forgotten you! I haven't!! I swear as soon as I get back to writing Fur the Record I'll add up some posts and stuff.
Oh, and my WoW people. I'm sorry. I know I've sucked lately as a GM. Forgive me. I'm lucky to have a subscription right now. I'm still trying to squeeze in some time to maintain everything. If you've got issues, please just message me. and I'll try to get to them!
Plus, like of all that wasn't enough to make a person crazy (not including the stuff I don't want to blast on here), I also have to deal with a person I can't stand on a daily basis! I swear, if I've not strangled him by the end, dude has an angel sitting on his shoulder!
And I'm getting a part-time job. Did I mention I have NO time, because that NO time just got a whole heck of a lot less.
Maybe I should just stop sleeping. It's for the weak, right? I mean, who really needs the few hours of sleep I get anyways- when I'm not up all night because my brain won't shut off and I'm too stressed.
I need a vacation. Thanks for coming by and reading my rant. They are usually far and few in-between, so it should be a while til I do it again.